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i cant believe its been a year since i told.
a year since i first said those words.
and what a year it has been.
even with all of the ups and downs it has caused, i wouldnt take back what i said that night.
it has allowed me to be who i really am.
THIS is me.
its been a tough journey, and i know that it will get tougher still, but i also know that i have such a community of support built up around me.
there are still 4 very important people i need to tell.
the rest will find out when they find out.
but i am scared.
scared of losing 3 of those people.
those 3 people are so important in my life, i cant bear to think of my life without them.
so i hide it still.
eventually the day will come.

where i am at

"It’s not about sex at all, even though that’s the first thing that pops in your head. It’s about the love and the vibe you get from the person."

I love where we are at.
I am so happy to be back in a relationship with her.
I am SO SO happy for her that she was finally able to tell someone.
I love every minute that I spend with her.

But...

I am still a little scared.
Scared of getting hurt again.
I dont want to be, and I am trying to give this my all, but I know that, for now, there is still that little piece of my heart that I am still protecting.
Waiting a little longer to make sure it doesnt get hurt again.
I want to be able to give my all, for both of us, and I will get there, but for now I am still just a little scared.

i want to hold your hand...

Oh yeah, I´ll tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

Oh, please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
and please, say to me

You'll let me hold your hand
Now let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

And when I touch you i feel happy, inside
It's such a feeling
That my love
I can't hide
I can't hide
I can't hide

Yeah you, got that something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

And when I touch you I feel happy, inside
It's such a feeling
That my love
I can't hide
I can't hide
I can't hide

Yeah you, got that something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your ha-a-a-a-a-a-and