"just friends"

the past month has definitely been a roller coaster of emotions.

i go from being completely fine with this one minute, to sobbing the next.

i want to forget.

i want to move on.

but part of me cant.

there is still that small part of me that holds out hope that someday...maybe...

i have seen how good it can be...i had never felt that before.

and now that is what i want.

even if it isnt with her.

i want to find someone that will make me feel how i did during those two wonderful months.

someone who will treat me how i deserve to be treated.

and i know they are out there...i thought i had found her...

but i guess i just keep looking.

just to see you smile...

You always had an eye for things that glittered
But I was far from bein made of gold
I dont know how that I scraped up the money
I just never could quite tell you no
Just like when you were leavin amarillo
To take that new job in tennessee
And I quit mine so we could be together
I cant forget the way you looked at me
Just to see you smile
Id do anything
That you wanted me to
And all is said and done
Id never count the cost
Its worth all thats lost
Just to see you smile
When you said time was all you really needed
I walked away and let you have your space
Cuz leavin didnt hurt me near as badly
As the tears I saw rollin down your face
And yesterday I knew just what you wanted
When you came walkin up to me with him
So I told you that I was happy for you
And given the chance
Id lie again
Just to see you smile
Id do anything
That you wanted me to
And all is said and done
Id never count the cost
Its worth all thats lost
Just to see you smile

Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it. But every now and then look around. Drink it in. 'Cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

i am stuck on band aid brand cuz germs dont stick on me

i am trying to leave the bandaid alone.
whats underneath needs to heal.

if you give me a chance...

I would give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything That's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that.

warning label

relationships should come with a warning label.

warning: some days you may feel like you've been punched in the stomach and had your heart stomped on. other days may be worse.

im not saying every day is like this, but some days def are.

is it winter?

because it sure feels like it. 

all summer i could feel the warm sunshine, all around me. 

it was a wonderful feeling, and i dont know where it has gone. 

i feel like all of these clouds have come, and blocked out the sun, and now i am trying to push away the clouds, just to get a glimpse of that ray of sun i used to know so well. 

the clouds always manage to beat me though, no matter how hard i try, and its killing me. 

i just want my sun back. 

the road debris of life...

...can really suck sometimes.
just when you think things are getting back to normal, there is another giant piece of tread waiting in the road to tear up your car. (or your girlfriends...)
i love my mom, and i am worried about her.
i want to know what is going on.
isnt this what the drs get paid the big bucks for? and they cant figure it out?
i love her and i want her to be better.

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
Ill shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
Ill get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin.
Oh, didnt i, didnt i, didnt I see you cryin? 

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
Id love you to love me.
Im beggin you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.