a balancing act

thats what i feel like my life is right now and i feel that at any moment, with one wrong move, things could come crashing down all around.
what is happening to my family and the people i love?
why is this happening?
is this some sort of test? punishment? Gods way of showing Himself?
i dont understand.
laura.
mom.
angela.
mike.
me. (although my issues arent nearly as big)
why do they all have to go through all of this?
laura cant seem to escape...if its not one organ system failing, its another.
all she wants is to lead a somewhat normal life and she cant seem to get a damn break.
her heart, her head, then add the pukes, and now? now we can add her kidneys acting up AGAIN.
my mom is doing ok...i WISH people would stop asking every time i see them...but i do worry. i worry that at any minute things could change again.
angela...geeze where do i start? she cant seem to catch a break either.
and then mike. poor mike. thought he was done with all of this. hopefully he can get some good answers on thursday and be able to put this behind him quickly.

but really...what is going on?
i dont want to question God, but at times like these it is SO hard. why are all of these things happening to such wonderful people? it just doesnt seem fair.