Saturday, August 8, 2009

mom

yesterday my mom had a psychotic breakdown. 
she has been diagnosed with psychosis and is now staying at a residential psychiatric facility. 
i miss her. 
i know the medication did this to her, but i miss who she was. 
i want it to go back to normal. 
when i saw her yesterday she looked so empty. 
and she said she hates me. 
i know she didnt mean it, but it still hurt. 
i never knew how nice it was to be able to stop in any time to see her, or to call her for random reasons. now i cant. for probably at least a month. 
this is going to be a very stressful time for my whole family. 
i am trying to stay strong for them, its just so hard sometimes. 
i need a hug. 
or a drink. 
or both. 
i still miss her. 

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