mom

i want my mom to accept me for who i am. 

i dont want to be my sister. 

or my brother. 

i want to be me. 

and right now i dont know who that is. 

but when i figure it out, i just want her to accept me and be proud of me. 

however, i feel lately that with every step i take and every decision i make i get further and further away from this. 

but i cant change who i am, this is just me.