no strings attached

never knew how well that could work out.
i can have fun (and it is definitely fun) and no one (namely me) ends up hurt!
why the hell have i been so clingy and such an emotional basket case in the past?
what the fuck was my problem?
geeze.
i would get rid of me too.

one night at a time

For the first time ever I can truly say I am 100% ok with this statement.

hmm.

ok, so i know i said in the last post that i am happy, and its true, i am.
but the past few days i have had those feelings again.
those what ifs? and why nots?
it doesnt make me sad though.
i love the time that we spent together, i love the songs that remind me of us, i love who we were and who we are today.
sure, i wish for more, and sure if it were offered again i would jump at the chance.
but i think i would approach it differently.
getting my heart broken twice sucked, but there is just something about her that keeps me coming back.
i dont understand it, dont know that i ever will, and dont know that we will ever have what we had that first summer, but i will never lose those memories.

long time

wow it has been a long time.
boy have things changed.
im happy. work is stressful. (but when is it not?)
school is almost done!
i cant believe in one semester i will be a real adult!
i also cant believe i still have christmas decorations on my blog.
ive been busy else where.
anyways, just checking in here.
i try to avoid the posts on here so i dont get sad, but i also dont want to forget those memories.
best two summers of my life. :)