procedure

ugh. 

damn insurance. 

cant they just do it already?

love

i love her. 

i dont know how i fought this so long. 

i am so happy with her. 

when i am away from her i just want to be with her, and i would do anything to make her happy. 

i hate to see her hurt, and i hate even more to see her cry. 

i am scared for wednesday. 

i know everything will be ok, but i wish she didnt have to go through this again. 

ps. love is a wonderful thing. 

lately

i am so happy :) 

people have noticed it too. 

they say i am smiling more, that i seem happier...ask if i have a boyfriend or something.

something like that...

i am happy in life, i am hopeful for school, and i am even hopeful for a change in pace at work. 

its funny how one little thing can change every aspect of life. 

life

school is stressing me out and it isnt even here yet. 

money is dumb. why does everything have to be about money?

family. ugh. enough said. 

work is killin me. i need a day off. just a small break from it all. 

but even with all of that i come home and everything feels better. 

because when i come home i see her. 

she makes it all better. 

i just lay down and take her in. 

her scent. her look. her touch. 

i want to be with her all the time. 

nothing else in the world matters when i am with her.  

how it is

we are really doing this. 

and it scares me daily, but it excites me even more. 

i cant keep my mind off her. 

if im not focussed on something, my mind wanders, and it always ends up there. 

i love her touch. her gentle ways.